hey.. i really need a spot to vent my frustrations..

just got home frm diner with dad and his friends.. at clementi.. nice food..

i spent 12 BLOODY HOURS in snco course..
half my day.
getting irritated with seniors that i do not respect, or find that they will teach me much.
i miss dhs seniors, and wish that just a few can go to snco.
i think that they are not professional, or seh, or anything that i will look up to.
the incheks can make me laugh to death. i can be a better one i think. even huishaung can be.
EVERYONE feels the same way, everyone from dhs corps i guess.
yea.. cant mix.. trying my best.
but the seniors.. esp the incheks n blah just puts me off..
Jnco was much more scary and hiong and really tests my limits to its fullest..
now? i'm like retired.. snco is totally crap i repeat..

everyone is poning tomorrow..
a few i guess.. i dont think i will..
because the responsible me cant bring myself to.. seriously..
always a struggle inside me.. SJ is getting to be something i loathe deeply.

anyway, on a lighter note..
my group has been fun............
eh.. trying hard to brainstorm for something HAPPENING that make me happy..
nothing.
SNCO is a drag.

whatever.. i find no need for me to stand out and try to perform for it..
like i tried for Jnco last year..
these people can just think i'm nothing and i'm fine with it..
just try to let time past faster can?

thks for allowing me to crap here with my complains..
me the complain queen..

yah... the best thing in my life right now is that tml you are coming back.
yes finally you are coming back
i've been waiting for years.
and no matter how much snco sucks tomorrow.. its still gonna be the bestest day in ages because you are coming back :)

few more hrs to go, missing you badly.